Hey! I just didn't know what to post, and came up with something that's bothering me, but I didn't feel like sharing it with the whole world. But I changed my mind. I think that if we all hide things like that, we're just ignorant, we're just not saying anything that might show that we're weak, that we're HUMAN. I just feel so cold. I was out, with 4 of my friends today, and I felt so cold, like I'm not a part of the society, but only an empty person. People on the road, walking, never smiling, looking like the dolls behind the glass of a shop. Looking lifeless, not caring about anything. Poor people on the road, playing the guitar and everyone passes by like they're not there, never minding to spare a few coins to give those people. Is it just me? I feel that we all isolate ourselves, and that's like losing the entire meaning of life. Maybe I'm just a dreamer.
"All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, to make it possible. This I did."
-T. E. Lawrence
This is one of my favorite quotes, and I wonder am I just a dreamer of the day, that makes his own dream possible or a dreamer of a night, greedily grabbing onto his lonely dream?
Maybe it's me growing up, 'cause certainly we all do.
Even with my friends, I feel like we don't even care about each other. I asked one of my friends to buy him a drink, and he actually laughed at me. He thought that I was trying to be a friend, I was trying to get closer to him. But no, that wasn't it.
Also, I asked a question to a random shop assistant and she responded like I had taken something precious from her. And I don't even understand why. Maybe, as I already said, it's just me, but I wanted to discuss it, to share it so that I can see if anyone feels like me. I feel alone. EMPTY.
I think money is a reason that we're all so greedy and fight only for ourselves. I mean, everyone wants something that they can't buy. Me too. But I'd never be upset or sad for something I couldn't buy, whether it is a cell phone or a computer or anything else.
I wouldn't want my parents to be rich though. I'd much rather fight to earn the money, than having my parents work just for me. I'd never play the smart guy with someone else's money... And here I quote another of my favorite artists ;
"Materialism lives outside the lines of my reality"
- The Game
Also, another thing I want to say, is I see people being so good and gentle on the internet, but not in the real world. I don't know why I even thought about it. But still. It's real.
I would not easily discuss this thing with people in person, 'cause of the reaction I'd get. I think it would be somewhat annoying to have someone laugh at you when you talk about something like this.
Another thing I want to say is
"Be the change you want to see in the world."
-Gandhi
I want to be that change. But I don't know how. I need to work on it.
Thank you all for reading this, and I'd be pretty happy to discuss it in the comments, Facebook or Twitter.
Thanks again for reading this post, although I know many will miss my point.
